one haaaaller

'tong kantang 'to,
para kay cid.


If you're not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
Its a chance you'll take
It's a chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you gotta let them in

Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now its easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart

If you're not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real means
Means you'll some day will say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
Its a circle you know
And it starts with one hello

Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
Its a circle you know
And it starts with one hello
It starts with one hello

people alone

when i was in elementary days,these tune touched my heart..
yah, tune coz i'm ignorant about the lyrics.
and these past few mornings, i often do the humm-ings,
yah, humm-ings coz i still don't know the lines.
thanks internet for letting my fingers do the eyes work in looking for its lines,
and here it is...

Take me alone
I don't care where you have come
And i don't have to know
Exactly where you're going
If you leave me behind
Then everything on your mind
Will turn to pictures of the world
We might have been
People alone may go very fast
But maybe not so far
Playing alone is still solitaire
Remember
People alone may reach for a love
But only half as well
People alone may seem satisfied
How can they tell ?
If we're crossing the night
Where there's no yards and no lights
We'll find it easy to see
People should be together
People alone may go very fast
But maybe not so far
Playing alone is still solitaire
Remember
People alone may reach for a love
But only half as well
People alone may seem satisfied
How can they tell ?
Take me along
Let's not be people alone
I'm on your mind
So please don't leave me behind
Crossing the night
Where there's no ards and no lights

f i r s t l o v e

just want to share this, one of my favorite songs,
i have'nt yet encountered a song as divine & as pure compared to these lines:


loving You Lord is what i live for,
loving You Lord to the uttermost
Lord forgive me
if i left my first love,
best love, my true love for You
You are more than anyone i love
You are more than anything i have
even my dear self
nothing can compare
to my beloved bridegroom
i give You the first place
in all things by faith
let nothing take Your place
with all my heart
infuse me with Yourself
abundantly
'till we meet dear Lord
i love You with my best love.

sabi nila, "Love is unlimitted"....
pero, bakit ang pagmamahal ko sa'yo
lubhang limitado
oo, limitado lamang sa apat na sulok ng wendy's
kung saan ko lamang mahahawakan
ang malamig na cup na kulay mocha
kung tawagin ay 'frosty'
kung saan ko unang natikman
ang catshup na galing sa kamatis
kung saan nadadampian
ang aking mga labi
ng mga 'strips' ng patatas.
bakit ba hindi pwede?
namumukod tanging ako lamang
ang hindi pwede,
hindi ka pwedeng i-take out?
kung sa bagay, nagpapasalamat narin ako
at kahit papaano,
naramdaman ko
kung gaano kasarap ang ilang oras
nang pananatili sa loob
ng apat an sulok.
ang nakalulungkot
dahil nga sa hindi ka pwedeng ilabas,
hindi kita makasama
sa mga halakhak ko
sa tabi ng mga higanteng ilaw na 'lolipop'
na nakahilera sa daan ng Roxas Boulevard.
hindi mo nalaman
na sa kabila ng mahihinhin na kilos
ay kayang isigaw ang pangalan mo
sa madilim na kweba ng Biak na Bato.
hindi mo nakita
kung gaano kalakas kumain
ang patpatin kong katawan
sa isang kainan na kung tawagin nila ay 'Damba'
ng inihaw na tilapia at sinigang na hipon.
hindi mo natikman
ang iba't ibang masasarap lutuing
kaya kong ihain at punuin
sa ibabaw ng mahabang 'round table'.
sayang, ikaw pa naman ang gusto kong hainan.

sa ngayon, hindi ko alam
kung hihintayin kita na makalabas,
o ikaw nga ba'y lalabas sa loob ng...


APAT NA SULOK NG WENDY's.

The Perfect Shepherd

Joseph's biography indicates that he had no defects. According to the record, he was altogether perfect. In the Bible Joseph is the perfect one in the Old Testament, and Jesus is the perfect One in the New Testament. The four biographies of Jesus in the New Testament reveal that He was perfect, without defect. The record of Joseph in the Old Testament reveals that he also was perfect. With the exception of Joseph, all the personal types of Christ in the Old Testament [such as David, Solomon, etc.] had some shortcomings.
This perfect aspect is a shepherd. This typifies the aspect of the constitution of Christ in the mature life that is the shepherding life to take care of others. In chapter thirty- seven Joseph not only fed and shepherded the flock; although he was the second youngest brother, he was sent by his father to shepherd his brothers. Thus, Joseph shepherded not only his father's flock, but also his father's sons. The Lord Jesus also came as a shepherd (John 10:11).
Although you may be new in the church life, you nevertheless have the constitution of Christ within you. Christ has been constituted into you, and this becomes the constitution of Christ in your spiritual life. This is what gives you the burden to take care of others. This is shepherding. The constitution of Christ in our spiritual life has a shepherding aspect.

-an excerpt

A TIME WITH THE LORD

In his book on prayer, Andrew Murray tells of a question raised by the chairman at a ministers' conference: "Everyone here who prays thirty minutes every day, hold up you hand." Of that whole congregation, only one hand was held up! The chairman then asked all who prayed fifteen minutes daily to hold up their hand. Half the hands went up. When he asked who prayed five minutes daily, the remainder of the hands were raised. Is not this the situation among us today? We all must personally ask ourselves this question: "How much time do I spend daily with the Lord?" The most prevailing need among Christians today is to spend a certain amount of time every day reading and praying in the presence of the Lord.
In the physical realm we need to spend time daily to obtain physical nourishment by eating physical food. How much more time we need to spend to obtain spiritual nourishment by eating the spiritual food. According to the present situation nearly all Christians know how to study, memorize, meditate, and search the Scriptures for knowledge, but very few know how to come to the Word of God to enjoy the Lord and to receive spiritual nourishment.
As people who have God living within them, we need to set aside some time each day to come to the Word of God to enjoy Him, to feed upon Him, and to receive spiritual nourishment. From the experiences and testimonies of others, it is clear that we need to spend at least thirty minutes with the Lord each day to contact Him and be strengthened by Him. During this time we need to read and to pray, and this cannot be done adequately in ten minutes. A longer time is necessary in order to read and pray properly. Even half an hour for reading and praying is too short, but surely we can spend half an hour with the Lord every day to pray-read His Word, and the best time for this is in the morning.
During this thirty minutes we must forget about knowledge, a message, a movement, or a work, etc. All this must be forgotten and our whole attention given to spending proper and adequate time in the Lord's presence. As sons of God this is the first and primary daily experience into which all Christians must be brought. For at least thirty minutes each day, we must learn not to exercise our mind too much, but simply to exercise our spirit in pray-reading. It is impossible for any Christian who spends less than thirty minutes daily in the presence of the Lord to be adequately spiritual and healthy. This is a fixed principle. Can anyone be healthy who does not eat daily?
If we will do this for a period of time, the Lord will work a great change in us. Our experience of Christ will be deepened, and eventually our influence toward others will be prevailing. The whole situation among us will be radically changed, not by teaching, studying, and exhorting, but by contacting the Lord.
We must pay the price to spend this time with the Lord for the sake of our spiritual growth. In the mornings we must not love to lie sleepily in our beds so long. Watchman Nee once told us that if we love our bed, we can never love the Lord. There is a real struggle with us all between choosing the Lord or choosing our bed.
If by the Lord's mercy and grace we desire and agree to spend more time daily in the presence of the Lord, what shall we do? By what means can we touch the Word of God for nourishment and enjoyment? We must learn to do only one thing—we must mingle our reading with our praying. We must contact the Lord by mingling our reading of the Bible with prayer, and by mingling our prayer with reading. This is why a new word, pray-read, has been used. We must pray-read the Word.
First, begin by spontaneously offering a short prayer to the Lord. Then open your Bible and start to read. While you are reading, spontaneously respond to the Lord with what you read. Do not read too many verses, such as a long paragraph or a long section, before praying. While you are reading, respond to the Lord by praying.
Do not try to pray long sentence prayers, and do not pray for many things, asking the Lord to do something for you. Simply learn to pray with the words you read. The valuable prayer, the prayer which contacts the Lord, is to utter or express what is responding within you as you read the Word.
This thirty minutes daily should be spent not asking the Lord to do many things, but simply staying in communion with Him and enjoying Him. The more we enjoy Him, the more He will be pleased. If we ask Him to do this and that, He will say, "Foolish child, it is unnecessary for you to ask Me to do all those things. I can take care of that; you must only enjoy Me."
In the New Testament, the Lord Jesus speaks of God's Word as spiritual food: "But He answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceeds out through the mouth of God" (Matt. 4:4). Every word which proceeds out of the mouth of God is spiritual food to nourish us. The Scriptures reveal at least three cases of those who ate the Word of God. One is Jeremiah, who said, "Your words were found and I ate them..." (Jer. 15:16). This statement is not according to our human concept. If it were not written in the Bible, we would never have thought that we must eat the Word of God. We might say that we must learn about the Word and study the Word. The most we would say is that we must receive the Word of God. But we would never use the word "eat"! Jeremiah ate the word of God. This means he received the Word into him, assimilated it, and made it a part of himself.
In the same verse Jeremiah also said, "Your word became to me the joy and rejoicing of my heart." This is a kind of enjoyment. The Word, after being eaten, became a joy and also a rejoicing. Joy is experienced within, and rejoicing is expressed without. God's Word is an enjoyment; after being taken into us and assimilated into our very being, it becomes joy within us and rejoicing without.
There are also a number of other verses which reveal this same thought to us. David said, "How sweet are thy words unto my taste! yea, sweeter than honey to my mouth" (Psa. 119:103). The Word is an enjoyment, and it is even sweeter and more pleasant than honey to our taste. From all these verses we realize that the Word of God is not only for us to learn, but more for us to taste, to eat, to enjoy, and to digest.
Then in 1 Peter 2:2-3 we see that to eat the Word is to taste the Lord. "As newborn babes, long for the guileless milk of the word in order that by it you may grow unto salvation, if you have tasted that the Lord is good." In verse 2 there is the eating of the Word, and in verse 3, the tasting of the Lord. When we eat the Word of God as our spiritual nourishment, we taste the Lord. Therefore, like Jeremiah, we must eat the Word; then we will enjoy the Lord and receive spiritual nourishment.
Another important verse is 1 Timothy 4:6b: "You will be a good member of Christ Jesus, being nourished with the words of the faith." Perhaps you have been in Christianity for many years. Have you ever thought that we must be nourished in the Word of God? As a rule, we always think that we must be "taught" in the Word, by the Word, and with the Word. But how many Christians have noticed the word "nourished"? And how many have ever heard a message stressing the importance of being nourished in the Word?
But the concept of the apostle Paul was that God's Word is food to nourish God's children. We must be nourished in the Word, not merely taught. Praise the Lord, nourished! Hallelujah, we must be nourished with the Word, not just taught with letters! Paul's emphasis is not that we should be taught with knowledge, but that we should be nourished with the riches of the Word.
What is our intention when we come to read the Scriptures? Has not our intention for many years been to know, to learn, or to understand something? Our concept has been that the Bible is a kind of teaching, a book full of doctrines. So we came to the Word, intending to understand and to know something. However, we should not just exercise our wonderful mind with our mysterious understanding to understand the Word of God. We must forget about this. We should not appraise our mind and appreciate our understanding so much. We need to be blind men and even fools, simply coming to the Word to exercise our spirit to pray-read. Forget about the old, traditional way!
If we do not know how to pray-read, we will pray in the following way: first, we will rise early in the morning, feeling that we must pray. Then we will try to pray like this: "Lord, I thank You that You are so good...that You have given me peace...that You have protected me from all kinds of danger..." Then we suddenly remember that we are about to travel somewhere: "Oh, I am about to travel...Lord, grant me journeying mercies...the safety...from a car accident..." After further hesitation, we continue, "I have a friend in Vietnam...Lord, remember him...remember James in Vietnam...also Tom in West Germany...Lord, Tom is there...he needs Your protection..."
We must answer honestly. What does this kind of prayer do for us? This is the way most Christians pray. But do they receive any nourishment? Do they gain something which causes them to be full of joy within and rejoicing without? No!
The right way is this: first, come to the Bible to pray-read. There is no need to close your eyes. Keep your eyes on the Word as you pray. In all sixty-six books of the Bible we cannot find one verse which says that we should pray with our eyes closed. But there is a verse which says that Jesus looked up to the heavens, saying, "Father..." (John 17:1). He was looking at heaven while He was praying! We would not argue in a doctrinal way, but we must realize that there is no need for us to close our eyes to pray. Simply look at the printed page which says, "In the beginning..." Then with your eyes upon the Word and praying from deep within say, "O Lord, `In the beginning!' Lord, I praise Thee `in the beginning was the Word.' Although I do not know what the Word is, the Word was there. I praise Thee, Lord! `In the beginning!' Hallelujah! `In the beginning!' O Lord, `In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.'" Simply try to pray in this way. Perhaps you will turn to another verse. "There is now then no condemnation." "O Lord, `There is now no condemnation' O Lord, `Now no condemnation.' Amen. `Now.' O Lord. `Now.' Amen! `Now no condemnation.' Praise the Lord! Hallelujah! `No condemnation,'" etc.
While we are pray-reading there is no need for us to compose any sentences or create a prayer. Just pray-read the Word. Pray the words of the Bible exactly as they read. Eventually, you will see that the whole Bible is a prayer book! Not only is the "Lord's Prayer" a prayer, but the whole Bible is a prayer. Open to any page, any line, any word of the Bible, and start to pray with that portion of the Word. If you will continue to pray-read in this way in the presence of the Lord for thirty minutes, you will see what kind of enlightenment, watering, nourishment, refreshing, strengthening, and satisfaction you will obtain. From these thirty minutes, you will have a spiritual breakfast which will last the entire day!
Although you may not understand a certain passage, you still are nourished, because there is really something of God in His Word. The Word of God is His very breath. (Second Timothy 3:16 in the Greek is, "All Scripture is God-breathed.")
Do not try only to learn the Bible. We must realize that this is a book of life, not a book of knowledge. This book is the divine embodiment of the living Spirit, and He is life. The right way is not just to study or learn, but to contact the Word by exercising our spirit to pray-read. Thousands have proven that this is the right way. This way of coming to the Bible has revolutionized their lives. If you would try it for five mornings, you also will be changed. Your whole concept about the Bible will be radically altered. It may not work so well at first, but with practice, you will touch the living Spirit.
What the church needs today is not more knowledge and teachings, but nourishment, and the way the Lord nourishes His Body is by His Word. The Lord is eagerly waiting for a way to nourish us and become our enjoyment. Pray-reading gives Him that way. By this kind of prayer all the riches of Christ will be brought into us and even wrought into us. No teaching, doctrine, or knowledge can work Christ into us to such an extent; it is only by this way of prayer. Therefore, we all must learn to pray in this way. Eventually, we will be brought out of ourselves, saturated with Christ, and permeated with the Spirit.

-an excerpt

b i l a n g go

lagi ka nalang bilanggo....
sa likidong nananalaytay
sa buo kong katawan.
sa kulay mong pula'y nababagkas
ang iyong pagrerebelde,
at kung ang balat
ay hindi bumukas o matuklap man,
ay hindi pa matitikman ang kalayaan.
kaawa-awa ka
sa pagkakabilanggo mo
sa aking ugat.

tulad ng isang bulag
walang nakikita maliban sa dilim.
ang pagkakaiba nga lamang,
ang dilim
ay hindi nya ninanais na makita
ngunit ikaw bilang dilim
ang hinahangad ko lamang
sa araw-araw na masilayan.
inirehas, ikinulong kita
sa dlawang bolang itim.
kaawa-awa ka
sa pagkakabilanggo mo
sa aking mga mata.

inokupahan mo ang dalawang bahagi
ng 'auricle' at 'ventricle'
ng ga-brasong laman na pumipintig
sa gitna ng aking dibdib.
at ang bawat ga-segundong pagtibok
ay hudyat ng iyong suntok
na ibig kumawala.
kaawa-awa ka
sa pagkakabilanggo mo
sa aking puso.

kaawa-awa....
bilanggo.....
ikaw nga ba? o....

AKO.

keep my heart

just one touch, one kiss,
one look into your eyes
You're all i need my love
let me hear again your voice
You are now my final choice
speak in love to me
i waste my life on Thee.
Please keep my heart
always true to You
never regressing
always viewing You
a heart that is pure
that keeps only You
a heart that loves You
and treasure only You
nothing constraints me
to give my all to You
You're i desire
the One who loves me true.

nothing and no one can satisfy me but You anymore.